Side Note:

Side Note:
For those who haven't figured it out, or haven't been here: The titles of most of the blogs here are song lyrics. If you google them, it should take you to the song and the song is good to listen to before, during, or after reading to help set the tone of the blog. I find music to be very cohesive with reading and writing.

Friday, November 12, 2010

A Small Post. A Postito, If You Will...

Don't expect multiple posts a day to happen too often. Today I just feel like it. I have all of these thoughts and little ideas I'm tossing around that I think I'll be able to sort out better if I see them typed up.
I'm considering trying to set up a sort of tasting party perhaps through my FRG here. (For those who may not know, FRG stands for Family Readiness Group. Its a group for families of soldiers, especially those who are deploying. It's like a support group.) I figure if I could get a tasting party set up prior to the holidays that maybe before or after the holidays I could make a few sales of cookies and stuff. At the same time though, I'd sort of rather worry about the business once Erik's deployed and just collect and organize recipes (maybe a test a few on him) now and then do the parties after he's gone when I'll need it to fill up time and occupy me.
I'm also torn as to whether to get a second puppy. Seeing Rory playing with Bella and being so happy and energetic reminds me of her playing with Little Man (my parent's dog) or with Duckie (my biological mom's cat.) It makes me wonder if she'd like another little dog to play with or if she'd feel replaced since it's always been just her since she was a puppy. (She's four.) Another consideration is that if I want to go anywhere while Erik is gone, or if we want to go anywhere together, we'd have to worry about kenneling two puppies or taking two puppies with us. We already have that same concern with Rory now, and then it would be doubled!
And then there's the big issue:  Babies.  I can honestly say that I don't think we're ready and that I really don't want a child right now. Erik and I want to establish ourselves and be married a minimum of three years (though we're aiming for five) before we have children. Erik also has the concern that with him being in the military he knows he will miss big events in our childrens' lives because of deployments and field duties. He loves the military, but the idea of missing football games, dance recitals, proms, graduations, birthdays & Christmases with our children makes him reconsider his goal of retiring military. The idea of raising children alone more often than with him there sort of terrifies me as well.
But at the same time, I know we could do it. I know we would be fine even if it was hard. And I know that sometimes I want time to speed up and us to be ready and know more clearly what's happening with our lives in the future so we can know when it will be time for us to have a baby. It would be nice to just have a peek into the future to help us pick when the time was right.
I need to go cook something so I stop thinking so much.

2 comments:

  1. Hold off on the bebies! I promise. Enjoy the time you have. :)

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