In this world, there are givers and there are takers. I, believe it or not, am a giver. I give to everyone, even those who don't really deserve it because regardless, it feels like it is the right thing to do. The problem with this, however, seems to be that eventually people figure you out. They realize you are a giver. They realize they can be a taker. It sinks in that no matter how much they want to take and take and take, you will be right there to keep giving. Eventually though, like even the greatest renewable resources, we all get tapped dry.
I believe yesterday may have been that point for me.
I have decided that sometimes, people really don't care what they take from you. They really do not care how things affect you. In this world there really are people who are just plain selfish and hey, maybe they don't realize it but that doesn't change the cold hard facts. They are takers and I'm tired of fueling it.
I am tired of sticking my neck out for people. I am tired of being the dependable friend. I am tired of being the one that can be leaned on but then when I turn to fall no one is there to catch me. Clearly the entirety of my friends and family do not fall under this, but the ones who do know it. They felt the guilt in the pit of their stomach when they read this. They felt it when they read my Facebook statuses and knew they were to whom I was speaking. They know it each time I'm reluctant to, or simply don't, answer a text. They know it because the normally smiling and happy person they milk for everything is now handing out lemons.
Suck on those for a while.
<3s
Fae
I feel like I should get a phone call. I know you'll answer, I'm not a taker. ;) I wanna know whatsa going ons.
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