The mantra is working so far. The "think," however, has been replaced with "know." The more I say it, the more I feel like I can do it. No matter how many of my teammates in this deployment drop off and give in, I've got to keep my head in the game and do what I can to stick this out. I don't want to go home. I want to stay here, work on our home. Find him a cheap truck/suv/car. I want to figure things out for myself, put things together, paint things, plant things. I want to do it all and I will do it.
I don't think I can. I know I can. It will be the hardest thing I have ever done, but I can do it.
Rants, raves, rememberings and run-on sentences to describe my day-to-day events, opinions, and adventures in adapting to my divorce, finding happiness with myself, and all while still striving to recreate in my home some of the feelings of the picturesque 1950's home-life, but with a little of my own personal attitude mixed in.
Side Note:
Side Note:
For those who haven't figured it out, or haven't been here: The titles of most of the blogs here are song lyrics. If you google them, it should take you to the song and the song is good to listen to before, during, or after reading to help set the tone of the blog. I find music to be very cohesive with reading and writing.
For those who haven't figured it out, or haven't been here: The titles of most of the blogs here are song lyrics. If you google them, it should take you to the song and the song is good to listen to before, during, or after reading to help set the tone of the blog. I find music to be very cohesive with reading and writing.
I'm not leaving you, just taking a job for the summer :) I'll be back when summer is over
ReplyDeleteYou can do it. You will do it. And when it's all over, you will be a much stronger, independent person.
ReplyDeleteI know, Heather (not Vchanny, the other! lol) and I'm happy for you that you got the job you wanted even if I'm bummed you're gonna be gone. :)
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